letās just go down the line
1. my parents almost named me āastridā but my mother hated it so now iām carina. i do think i couldāve pulled it off but itās not their fault they didnāt know i was going to be a tall alt girl with cunty looks. astrid now exists as my alter egoā¦ and she has her own lore as well
2. in high school i was a dedicated theater kid, and during my senior year i was involved in not one, but two productions of legally blonde the musical. the first round (at my local community theater) my good friend beat me out as elle to my own personal disappointment, but it did not deter me from being an all star sorority sister/lawyer/convict/extra etc. during our closing week, my high school announced we would be doing legally blonde as the senior musical. i essentially told the director she WOULD be casting me as elle and i would barely need rehearsal as i was born with this soundtrack in my veins and had the entire script memorized already. she didnāt like my attitude but cast me anyway as i was clearly born for the role. now iām a pop star so.. it tracks. and yes itās on youtube and i canāt remember my login itās stuck there forever
3. there is lore in every one of my breakups, no matter how large or small a role they played in my life. after a two month situationship ghosted me in 2018 i went fully batshit and i believe it launched my journey as an artist today, sparking a photo series of self-portraits reflecting on the complexities of being a multi-dimensional woman in the age of online dating. since then my art and my life have continued to mirror each other in a cheeky dance that i am sure some larger force above is pulling the strings on, and laughing with me in delight. oh how divine to be in such comedic dialogue with the universe! oh to be an artist!
4. i also did acapella in college and there is a LOT of proof because in a way that is very on brand for me, our group just smoked a lot of weed and made music videos with the film students. great times
Jul 7, 2024
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Iām a 30 year old UX designer from the northeast. I have a husband and daughter, and Iāve finally reached the part of life where if I died doing something stupid, people would say, āShe died too soonā but also, āShould have known betterā.
I like art and making things without the pressure to complete them or have them be meaningful. The older I get, the more I want to keep my interests and accomplishments to myself because I have a secret fear of judgement and rejection.
(Just kidding itās not a secret!)
Iāve been a tarot reader for five years, and I believe in ghosts mostly when itās incredibly inconvenient for myself.
I have the same big three as Megan Fox and Queen Elizabeth II - Iām thinking of starting a group chat!
Iām trying to learn to let go of things that I canāt control, bus also acknowledge that itās fucking hard.
I may be borderline depressed, but hey, at least I have a patent pending and vaguely remember how to quilt and blow glass.
I used to be a ferret queen, and a yoga girlie, and a bouldering babe, but now Iām firmly a couch rot mom. One day Iāll crawl out of my chrysalis and emerge ready to give a ted talk on how the divine fabric of reality is woven into the tapestry of all our lives, but today is not that day.
Feb 28, 2025
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I was born in a tiny town right outside of the Montana badlands two weeks before the turn of the century, one week before Christmas, and a week after my only sibling's birthday. I grew up in the middle of North Dakota, in a town big enough to have all the popular chain restaurants, but small enough where the only fun things to do with your friends was cruise around town and smoke by the river. I spent my childhood running around our neighborhood with the neighbor kids, and making YouTube videos with my sister and friends in the very early days of that site.
I've had a very complicated relationship with my family past elementary school, due to the fact that I had untreated ADHD and was always a bit of a troublemaker. My parents just didn't have a clue on what to do with me, to the point that they had considered sending me off to a boarding/reform school a time or two. I moved three hours away the second I graduated, and have been inching further east ever since. I didn't go to college, as I barely got through high school without flunking.
In my 7 years of adulthood so far, I've worn many hats. From working as a barista, to a waitress at a sushi place, to selling and making mattresses (I made the mattress i sleep on), to being a receptionist at a barbershop, and currently being the front desk girl at a tattoo shop, I never know what job is coming next for me.
I have a cat named Pooky, a beautiful fluffy grey and white tuxedo cat, that I can't help talk about all the time. He's just the best. I've lived with my cousin/best friend Aly, and her sassy cat Chloe, since 2018. We go to a lot of concerts, and almost always get to the barricade if we are in the pit. I talk a lottt. I have a stockpile of random information about musicians and history that I love to share with people. I love MCR. I thrive in the spring and autumn, weed gives me anxiety, I pronounce caramel like care-a-mel, have a slightly crippling fear of wasps and heights, and have recently gotten into crafts with my buddies. My 2007 Impala has 230,000 miles on it and I plan on driving it until it breaks down for good. And that's pretty much the basics.
Feb 28, 2025
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I'm moonbeams. I'm 23. I grew up in an emotionally chaotic family and so I feel like I never got to have much of a personality. I'm spending a lot of time now trying to figure out what I like and don't and how I want to fill my time.
My favorite thing is people who are very passionate about anything. I love cats and crows and I will always assume the best of people.
I like having a cozy home and having friends over. I like drinking tea and trying new flavors of everything. I'm a picky eater but I'll try anything a couple times.
I cut and dye my own hair. I'm not a professional by any means but I like playing around with it. I like to look edgier than I think I actually am.
I dabble in many forms of art. I don't make as much time for it as I wish I did. The same is true for reading. Both things I miss doing more.
If I like you I'll do anything for you, if I don't, you'll know. I'm not rude but I am blunt. I spent so much of my life hiding things that I don't lie anymore. I'm trying very hard to be kind but also know when to put myself first.
It takes me forever to develop romantic feelings for people and it takes me twice as long to move on from them. I don't think I'll ever get married and I love working with kids but I definitely don't plan to ever have kids.
I'm not very religious, or superstitious, and I don't believe in much of anything. I'm curious but skeptical and more than happy to let people do what works for them.
I am a night owl, eldest daughter, introvert and you won't ever catch me without my earbuds. I pack my purse like I plan to never see home again but this apartment with my roommate means everything to me.
I'm going to be leaving LA soon and I'm going to miss it so so much. This city sucks in some ways but it's been my city.
17h ago
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plugging myself because obviouslyā¦
if you are an overthinker, party girl, have fire sign placements and/or anxiety, enjoy liz phair, olivia rodrigo, sheryl crow, or the strokesā¦. perhaps give it a whirl. it has found itās way to many āsummer 24ā playlists and that makes me smile :) there is also a very funny music video on youtube. thanks all music lovers for considering
Jun 28, 2024
there is nothing better than a solo date to see a band you love. no shouting over the crowd to your date, freedom to dance as crazy as you want, peak people-watching. get as drunk as you want, who cares. talk to a stranger or donāt. tip the bartender and merch person, befriend the bouncer. you are the main character when you are on an adventure with yourself. who knows you better than youā¦? music is so euphoric and transformative, i will always cherish my solo concerts
Sep 12, 2024
how has no one said this one yet? chappell is winning music right now and this tiny desk certainly was part of that. between the stripped down live arrangements, matching pink band outfits, comedic personality in between songs, the wig (insane), and her VOICEā¦.truly this performance is beyond i could watch it a million times
Jul 2, 2024