Using your lungs for good and bad. Cancelling out the smoke with cardio. The bliss of a cigarette while walking through a big city in the fairly cold weather is an experience I can only describe as joyous and freeing.
brb spreading the propaganda that pining is intrinsically noble because im a sore loser with no patience who likes to fall in love so either way i win (option 1: omg she was so brave for yearning all this time AND IT FUCKING WORKED* or option 2: omg despite things not working out she’s literally sooooooo brave for letting the soft animal of her body love what it loves)
*me and the bad bitch i pulled by longing