This poem is so striking and pulls on my heart strings in a violent way I haven’t felt in most other writing, especially the excerpts below I want to live longer. I want to love you longer, say it again, I want to love you longer & sing that song again. & get pummeled by the sea & come up breathing & hot sun & those walks & those kidsĀ  & hard laugh, clap your hands. I am not ready to die yet. & when I go or you go, let me see you again somewhere, or you see me. Isn’t that you, old friend, my love? you might say, while swimming in some ocean to the small fish at your ankle. Or, Weren’t you my sister once? I might say to the sad, brown dog who follows me down the street. Or to the small boy or old woman or horse eye or to the tree. I know I knew I know you, too.
Feb 13, 2025

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I was so unaware of the privilege I had to be in a workshop with her my first semester of college, she's a saintly presence in a room
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fetadata That must have been an amazing experience 🄲 living thru you!!!
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oh my gosh this is so good. really packs a punch. thank you so much for sharing šŸ’š
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bigstrongguy of course!! Glad you like it too! :’>
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Ocean, don’t be afraid.Ā  The end of the road is so far aheadĀ  it is already behind us.Ā  Don’t worry. Your father is only your fatherĀ  until one of you forgets. Like how the spineĀ  won’t remember its wingsĀ  no matter how many times our kneesĀ  kiss the pavement. Ocean,Ā  are you listening? The most beautiful partĀ  of your body is whereverĀ  your mother’s shadow falls.Ā  Here’s the house with childhoodĀ  whittled down to a single red tripwire.Ā  Don’t worry. Just call itĀ horizon & you’ll never reach it.Ā  Here’s today. Jump. I promise it’s notĀ  a lifeboat. Here’s the manĀ  whose arms are wide enough to gatherĀ  your leaving. & here the moment,Ā  just after the lights go out, when you can still seeĀ  the faint torch between his legs.Ā  How you use it again & againĀ  to find your own hands.Ā  You asked for a second chanceĀ  & are given a mouth to empty into.Ā  Don’t be afraid, the gunfireĀ  is only the sound of peopleĀ  trying to live a little longer. Ocean. Ocean,Ā  get up. The most beautiful part of your bodyĀ  is where it’s headed. & remember,Ā  loneliness is still time spentĀ  with the world. Here’sĀ  the room with everyone in it.Ā  Your dead friends passingĀ  through you like windĀ  through a wind chime. Here’s a deskĀ  with the gimp leg & a brickĀ  to make it last. Yes, here’s a roomĀ  so warm & blood-close,Ā  I swear, you will wake—  & mistake these wallsĀ  for skin.
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Is it all that we wanted? This longing. I'd rather be dead than hungry. I'd rather be destitute than fed. The river bed is dry and I'm weary, It takes a man years to float Where the water's Few and far between. Like touching a wild animal. Arroyo in my desert where the love should be. I bathe in sand and loss And hawks flying through. Nothing to own Or some wanting to prosper. Only the Sun burning- Hungry and wailing To get to you.
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