this is making me learn + confront so many things about not just my fears but myself in general. im finding understanding and meaning and thru that im finding catharsis
I have been dealing with this for almost a year. There were some events that I think kicked it off. Maybe worse since the pandemic started. But! What has been really helpful is understanding that anxiety is showing up in the body because the body does not feel safe. Anxiety is a message to the brain! And sometimes that mechanism gets all fked up and misfires.
Doing somatic therapy with a therapist that I really like and think values my concerns has been helpful. I do body and environmental awareness exercises. These help me increase my sense of safety and trust of myself. It's gotten about 15% better since I started. I hope you feel relief soon. Shit is so hard.
Realizing I have been afraid of excitement because it teeters on anxiety but that has mostly been out of a lack of confidence on my part And finally realizing nerves are good And make you feel a little sexy. anyway, anticipation and what-ifs are some of the most fun ways to use your imagination and energy in life and wow I haven’t felt how good possibility or opportunity could be for a while. Almost let the dream and romance die in me for a second. Yikes!
the spice of life. means you're onto something, maybe good, maybe bad, but you're gonna learn something. it validates my anxiety, which i'm gonna feel anyways, might as well feel it for a reason.