Wasnāt expecting this album to float to the top, but here we are. This is a very theatrical & very affecting album, and it hits on a personal pain point of mine Iāve carried with me for a few years now.
Naming, and opening up that hurt: the haunting expression of double-distilled loneliness on The Constable, with its repeating New Yearās countdown, and its music video showing the front woman finishing up her playing on a piano to lay her head down on it & sob in the loud, wet silenceā¦ yeah.
Thatās like the whole album folding itself into a single drawn-out moment in a single song, and that gets me.
I have a recurring New Yearās resolution Iāve made over the past 9 ish years: to have people in my life, such that the next NYE isnāt a lonely one. I made good on that, finally, on New Yearās Eve & Day of 2023-2024, spent with a girl I cared for at the time. As it stands now, this recent New Yearās Day has me back to the recurring resolution.
I feel like itās tempting to fault yourself entirely for your loneliness. I feel like thatās unfair, most of the time, even though that same feeling also keeps me promising myself things. Itās a feeling Iām hesitant to honor, but itās undeniably in me, and it deserves to unfold itself and open, sometimes. And, I guess when it does, this is what it sounds like.
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i recorded an album full of sad songs about a toxic relationship and learning how to breathe again
itās called trust issues and it feels like a glimpse into some of the most vulnerable parts of a relationship on its last legs
iām a new artist from new zealand so never expect much from my releases but Iām kinda proud of how this turned out
Apr 21, 2024
A song delving into the heart of the listener. The longing for understanding and compassion from others is something I think most people have felt at some point, but this song evokes such raw emotions.
Play it in a car with the windows down and belt your heart out.
Feb 19, 2025
im using this song for a short film i have to make for school so i cant stop thinking about ānow iāll fake it every single day til i dont need fantasy, til i feel you leaveā
this lyric, to me, means so much more than romantic love, or love at all. to me, it means family. it means hate. it means loss. drugs. media. art. life, even. this whole album means so much more to
me than most. she saved it all for me.
Mar 8, 2025
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The film has so many moments of the most haunting and affecting imagery Iāve ever seen, and beyond that is staying with me in some kind of a sea-change way, which I donāt fully grasp.
Itās freely available on YouTube (linked here). Kanopy, too. Go see it.
Feb 9, 2025
David Berman was incredible with words. A new rainy day track on loop, for me.
Feb 10, 2025
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Like those weird, out-of-place lines that pop into your head when youāre trying to write a thing.
Write them down! Sometimes they lead somewhere or grow into something incredible and you just donāt know that in the moment. Like David Lynch & the opening line for Lost Highway popping into his head, completely out of context at the time.
It takes some work to trust yourself on these things, but it's damn worth it.
Feb 16, 2025