i used to be so scared of growing up and the passage of time. i wish i knew that you never really leave your childhood behind and that the present isn't so bad if you know how to find that childlike joy again!!
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one of the biggest things is letting yourself be bored. i feel lucky for all of us who missed being ipad kids and a little dread for the ones who didn't. so much of the life and personality and individual perception i have now came from the little games i used to play in my head and the way you think when you have nothing else to do
i finally just started getting that back. for years i'd always pull my phone out, never go a minute without music or a podcast or some other media injected straight into my brain, and i think i forgot a little how to generate. how to output and create something of your own instead of constantly consuming. but now i walk slowly and see the little worlds in each flower, in each inch of water. everything is so beautiful if you make it so in your head.
i feel like the child version of you is the truest and purest, and most of our lives are spent trying to get back to them, to undo all the layers of alienation and distraction we've placed upon ourselves.
Mar 29, 2025
Nostalgia is so powerful. And so painful.
I’ve made Pinterest boards filled with hundreds of memories and toys and things that shaped my childhood. I’ve made playlists that include only songs that make me feel 6 years old again. I’ve watched movies that bring me the same wonder they did as when I watched them as a child.
But nothing will ever truly bring me back there. It’s gone forever. to know that I will never walk the halls of my elementary school building, or try and plant an apple seed in between the slides of the playground, or play tag with my best buddies ever again is something unbearable. life is so short. I miss it all of the time.
Adulthood has its perks as well. I never have to ask to go sleep over at a friends house and get told no. I can eat what i want. I can get a kitten if I feel like it. But I miss the simplicity and happiness of being a child. I miss just existing and being okay with that. i miss how I felt when I was 6, but I have to accept that I must leave that behind.
Maybe reincarnation is real. Maybe I will live through something like this life again?
There is an ache knowing I will never walk the same tiny footsteps as I once did. But alas, I’ll be 19 years from where I’m at now and miss this age just as much as I do then. The ache will take a new shape. And i will continue living on.
Feb 12, 2025
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will forever feel like the best place in the world despite its mundanity. i rarely go back to it but when i do i'm so shocked by how everything feels like that one day when i was four years old and the sky was so so blue and reflecting off the glass panels of this ginormous office
Mar 14, 2025
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i'm gonna break the news to everyone this weekend but i need to tell someone right now - i passed the selection process for a one year internship at my local library with the highest score !!! it will be my first job and i felt so bad and out of place in every job interview i've ever had except for this one, the people there were so lovely and were genuinely interested in me and my interests. i can't believe it, i'm so excited i could cry :'))
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in italy we give women little mimosa flowers bouquets to celebrate so here’s a virtual one for all of you i love you!
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i used to look up to my friends’ older siblings and think wow i can’t wait to become as cool as them one day. then when i became a teen and i was so shy and cared too much about what others thought of me and the rise of social media didn’t help at all. but now i think back at the little diva i was and she would want me to feel confident, to be unique and happy and to keep being kind to others. her opinion is the only one that matters to me now
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