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Such a shame so much love lost to entropy Who’s to blame for the high cost of a memory? What remains when the tides wash our energy? Recycled lust must be just fine for us to glean I can’t afford what I’ve left behind I ruminate on love lost — or rather dispersed For I have so much to give you But no mouth to find the words.

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