did I change my username because of this post? …yes. I’ve had my current username, RAVEN87 elsewhere and I didn’t have it at first in fear of someone I know finding me, but I just don’t care anymore lol I love ravens because of their cleverness and their whole vibe. I like the number 87 because I saw online at some point that it resembles a plague doctor, which I had a fascination for when I was younger. and my username rhymes, which is a nice bonus
the one before was VAMP32. I love vampires and 32 is one of my other favorite numbers.
It was based on the meanings of my first and middle names, but in the interest of moving away from name-based usernames, I changed it to the phrase a carnival worker used to get my attention in 2015. I used it as a tumblr url for several years after that lol
And I felt lucky that it wasn’t taken when I joined the app. It’s also a signature part of my personality. Embracing my childhood name-call curse for the better. Weird is good!
even the smallest things may not seem to matter in the moment, but when you fast forward a bit, you may be trying to grasp the memory without any luck. writing things down, taking pictures, collecting, etc. is all so important.
my parents used to judge me and think I was weird for talking to myself when I was younger. I’m sure they still do, but they’re less vocal about it as they used to be. for context, I’m an only child, so talking to myself was nice for when I was bored or whatnot. it’s also helpful for sorting through my thoughts. it’s good to get things out when I don’t feel like talking to anyone in particular. I like to think of it as my own personal podcast.
I’m so glad I found this app. I was looking for a place where I can share more about myself without feeling judged by the people around me. now people can feel a connection towards me being truly myself instead of the mask I’ve been conditioned to put on for others. I imagine handing someone I’ve just met a paper with a link to this profile on it as a fun experiment
