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as i was reminiscing about book of my youth, i uncovered another buried memory. due to growing up poor circumstances, i was constantly getting free books from different programs as a kid. i remember when i was around 13? maybe 14? one of these books i received was “primavera” by francesca lia block. i think an older lady chose it for me based on the cover alone because i should NOT have been reading this at that age. it was a fantasy which excited me, but i soon realized it dealt with heavy themes and a lot of erotic elements that i didn’t truly understand. but the entire story remains vivid yet distant in my memory. i think i'm gonna take the plunge and read it again 13 years later. i remember the settings and prose being sooo vibrant and beautiful and i wonder if i would have newfound appreciation for it as an adult. i still love the cover and wish i still had my copy. but i think i quickly got rid of it after the big “what the fuck?” i felt when i finished it. i def thought my mom would find it and lock me in a dungeon for being a freak bc i slightly enjoyed it even when i was confused.
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Sadly my library doesn't have this one, but I just placed holds for a couple others by this author that seem interesting!
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@RANDOM-GAY-NERD yeah i was reading up on her other works and she seems super interesting as an author. apparently this one is sort of like a sequel so im gonna read the “first” book as well. i know for a fact my library doesnt have it so im headed to thriftbooks bc i’d love to have the covers in my collection.
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