It's a rec and anti rec at the same time.
Just saw an insta profile recommended to me of my best friend from middle school. Seeing her very happy even though we don't talk anymore since I moved makes me happy for her somehow. Though I'm mad at myself for not living through her life steps, since we're not friends anymore. I miss her and our friendship.
I'm moving back, but I don't think we'll go back to being friends again. So I'll just remember the fun time we had.