Wasnāt expecting this album to float to the top, but here we are. This is a very theatrical & very affecting album, and it hits on a personal pain point of mine Iāve carried with me for a few years now.
Naming, and opening up that hurt: the haunting expression of double-distilled loneliness on The Constable, with its repeating New Yearās countdown, and its music video showing the front woman finishing up her playing on a piano to lay her head down on it & sob in the loud, wet silence⦠yeah.
Thatās like the whole album folding itself into a single drawn-out moment in a single song, and that gets me.
I have a recurring New Yearās resolution Iāve made over the past 9 ish years: to have people in my life, such that the next NYE isnāt a lonely one. I made good on that, finally, on New Yearās Eve & Day of 2023-2024, spent with a girl I cared for at the time. As it stands now, this recent New Yearās Day has me back to the recurring resolution.
I feel like itās tempting to fault yourself entirely for your loneliness. I feel like thatās unfair, most of the time, even though that same feeling also keeps me promising myself things. Itās a feeling Iām hesitant to honor, but itās undeniably in me, and it deserves to unfold itself and open, sometimes. And, I guess when it does, this is what it sounds like.